Chances are you are sitting on a comfy couch reading this. Your refrigerator is full of good, fresh food. Your heat is set at about 70 degrees but, that’s OK because if you get chilly you can just grab a heated throw and plug that in, right? If you feel under the weather, you can just call your doctor and have all your health needs taken care of. You are safe, warm and well fed. You are a valued member of your chosen religious organization. You have a home…a family…a life. On paper you are a good person living a good life. So, then why are you so afraid? I ask you that because we live in a society that is wildly addicted to marginalizing other human beings. American society marginalizes almost everyone who isn’t a wealthy white male. We marginalize everyone who doesn’t have white skin, anyone who is LGBTQ+, women, people living in poverty, homeless people, people with physical illnesses and people with mental illness, disabled people, single parents, overweight people just to name a few. Much of these marginalization efforts are born from propaganda being fed to us by capitalists who almost exclusively use fear to take all our money or politicians who’s only real goal in their intentional efforts to marginalize others, is to enrich their own lives and bank accounts. Fear is the biggest and most powerful of all human emotions. They know that. It’s not rocket science. It’s actually embarrassingly simple. They use you by harnessing your fear. You do their dirty work and they love that. It delights them to no end and they live much more lavish lives than you ever will.
When you marginalize others, it briefly elevates you…at least in your brain it does. It’s a scientific fact. You got a little burst of dopamine at the expense of another living, breathing human being. Someone you don’t even know. Someone you will never see, hear or touch. Someone with hopes and dreams and beauty. But, that hate gets you high and that feels so good to you. It feels good because it makes you feel a fleeting moment of power in your otherwise powerless life. It’s no different that the high you get from heroin. That is the ONLY reason you do it. You don’t even give a second thought to the fact that you’ve hurt someone you don’t even know. Ignoring the harm you cause doesn’t make the harm magically go away. The damage to the people you marginalize is still there and you don’t feel better about yourself in any type of sustainable manner. That high you get is fleeting. You need a constant supply of that “hate” to keep getting that high. Hate is your drug. Hate is fear. You are an addict. A hate junkie. The irony of the fact that you have become exactly what you despise most in the world, is forever lost on you. You lurk in the comment sections on social media and lay a path of destruction everywhere you go. You don’t care at all that one day one of your comments will be too much for someone to take and they end their life. You don’t care about the tears of their parents or other loved ones left behind. You won’t see it so it doesn’t matter to you. You think like a small child. All that simply because you hate yourself but don’t have the basic level of self awareness necessary to be able to see it. You might be sitting there thinking that I couldn’t possibly be talking about you! How dare I, right? But, if you find yourself constantly telling everyone else in the world how to live their lives, I can assure you I am talking about you. There’s no denying it. You…are a hate junkie and that is nothing to be proud of.